In Which We Are Not Alone

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“You are not alone,” he said. “Do you know that?” 

I scoffed. Of course I am not alone. I live with thirteen other people.

I continued folding clothes.

“You are not alone,” he said again. “Do you know that?”

I sighed and went downstairs.

Later that evening, Robin tells me there is a song she thinks I would really love.

What’s it called? I ask, leaning against the doorframe.

“It’s called ‘You Are Not Alone’ by Kate Hurley.”

She plays another chord on her guitar.

Ah. I raise my eyebrows slowly. I’ll have to check it out.

(II)

I find the song and I play it.

As I listen, I wear goosebumps like a sweater,

the words echoing through the hallways of this dusty heart.

Because the truth is this: I came here in pieces.

I arrived in this city with much more than just two pieces of checked luggage.

Many days, I have felt alone–even in a house with thirteen friendly people.

But I am finding something marvelous.

None of us have it all together. Not even remotely.

And that’s perfectly all right. It’s a part of the process.

Through it, I am gently reminded of perhaps the most important truth:

When he said he would be with us always, he meant in the mess, too.

(III)

Here is what I hear the Father saying:

You are not alone in your pain.
And you are not alone in your doubt.
Bring your questions.
Bring your brokenness.
Bring every last piece of you. 

I am not afraid of the mess.
I am not offended by it, not angry at it, not ashamed of it.
I am big enough to carry it.

You have permission to be where you are.

I am not leaving you.
And I am not waiting for you to come with all your stuff figured out.

I am just waiting for you to come.
I am not interested in what you think I want you to be…
I just want you.

My love is big enough. Come and see. 

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11 thoughts on “In Which We Are Not Alone

  1. This—-> I am not waiting for you to come with all your stuff figured out.

    I am just waiting for you to come.
    I am not interested in what you think I want you to be…
    I just want you.<—— I love that. What words of truths. Thank you for sharing your heart and for sharing God's as well! You are a very talented woman, but you are actually so much MORE than that. These things don't define you. He defines you because you are His. Thank you for pressing in and not being afraid. 🙂 I love you!

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